Chode Regression Pattern...

Why do we regress if we don't approach consistently?

After 2 months of non-approaching I again have some shit form of AA, some shit form of blockades when I am about to kiss close and things like that...

I believe that some of you guys have an explanation for this. I just don't feel well when I have drawbacks in my game it makes me feel kinda frustrated, but also keeps me in drive for trying more.

I made some moves, my verbal game is up to the task, but, that kino momment, when you need to reel in and grab a girl, make a critical move I get stuck in my head and block myself shitless. I am not 100% sure, I am not 101% decisive! How to get there? Grrrr..........

Having a gf is like a curse, rather than a buff...

Random FaceBook turns out...

... I was sending a friend request to this chick I found cute. Going direct and...

Turns out that I already approached her and she still remembers it. Asked her out for some coffee, so let's see what turns out of that...

Matrix view on Seduction ;)

06/10/2009 Blown out times... :)

This was an interesting evening. I was out with my friend who got into seduction trough me like week ago. I am thrilled by his eagerness to approach. His attraction is quite good, but he gets stuck when it's about touching a girl.

We went to some Arabic caffe to smoke some nargilas and went on to approach some chicks there. Not much of a choice so it was up to me:

"Hey girls, wanna hang out with me and my friend? It's his birthday!"

I jumped trough some hoops, which I didn't like and biggest mistake of all is that instead of bringing them to us, we came to them.

Well they invited us over and location was better, because it was more private.

And it was longest stick in the set ever. To hang out for 3 hours with some chicks we've just met is quite an epiphany for me.

I do regret that I didn't went for the kclose with the chick I liked. I choded out at the begging of the interaction that I took. Don't know for what reason. Turns out that those 2 are SF geeks and Mensa members...

At one point I needed to get out of the place for 30 minutes, my friend wanted for us to stick there. Hell even wanted to stay there himself. I didn't want that to happen. So I followed him trough.

After we came back, we got accepted with cold turkey.

It amazes me, how at one point, it can be ONNNNNNN and so fucking ONNNNNNNNN... And next momment, we're landing ground zero :) They were offended because we left or what?

I don't even care, it's never about them, it's allways about YOU!

I am not motivated enough to write this field report in detail. But I learned something about myself and that counts.

03/04/09 Field Report

I went out to some party with a friend who is kinda newbie in the game. It was some birthday and lots of girls he already knows. Lots of his girlfriends were approaching him and I was kinda hooking from there. Didn't make any approaches, but had loads of interactions.

At one point I wanted to approach one chick and instead she comes by to us. I grab her elbow and pull her in, full intent, she got scared or something. Asked her name and it's off...

Bit by bit I was halfway getting into state. Some blonde cutie hit's me remembers me from some other party 2 weeks ago. I grab her by her waist, stand there a bit, busting her that she's too aggressive. Teasing her and she's all over me. My friend does nothing to her friend and they pull out.

After a while whole bunch of them, comes to dance with us. Blondie teases my cock with her ass. It was kinda a nice, cause beside feeling good and doing nothing in particular we were surrounded by chicks.

I pull the blonde again, when she was near us, kiss her on the chick telling her that we're leaving. Grab her really close and start touching the back of her neck and keeping her really close. She puts her head on my shoulder and stays there for a while, was emotional moment to her I think.

I didn't leave my comfort zone, but it's nice feel that things are going on. Nothing in particular happened, but it left some impact on me as an event.

Need to push myself way more into cold approaching.

Which I did right after. We went after to grab some food. There was a chick behind us.

"Are you from this neighborhood?" -"Yea" -"Can you tell us where XYZ dinners is?" -"Are you busting my balls?" -"No, I am not from around here." -"Where are you from?"

At that point we got into convo, but right after we got to the place where we wanted to eat and I naturally ejected, without much thinking. Because we've arrived to the dinners we were after, invited her over, but she proceeded. Guess not enough attraction for her to stay, nor for me to pursue ;p My friend was kinda shocked how I had massive attraction right off the bat. To be frank I was kinda too. Keep myself surprising how woman are responding well to me. Kinda think how it would go if I was longer in the field, guess I am gonna find that out...

01/10/2009 Field Report

Well I won't keep this blog only as blog, it's gonna be a personal diary of seduction to an extent. After one month break I decided to get back to field, because FIELD IS KING!

Don't get me wrong, I didn't waste month, I had 2 fclose's and I got a "gf" now. Well I didn't make anything official, but I see her on consistent basis.

So after the long break I decided to get back. And I am way worse than I was before. Not externally but internally. When you are good internally even when you are bad, you are not affected by bad result, but you strive for change and learn fast.

For some reason I am really having old issues, like AA and shit like that. I still need to break my reality hardcore, not to protect my ego. I need to step up to my own level that I knew I had.

Consistency, like in the gym. Consistency is what brings results, not fucking ego protection.

I do not care what anyone thinks of me!

I had just a couple of approaches and I was blown out hard time. And I was angry about it. Anger comes from ego, which is not satisfied with the result he gets, but we are not preoccupied here with the ego, aren't we?