Showing posts with label Inner Game. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Inner Game. Show all posts

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Putting my priorities back on the game!


I was focused on solving some really important issues in my life. And now when that is set, I have decided to get back to the game.

Being a player is about being the game itself. Maybe it sounds to esotherical, but you need to know your path and you need to know what kinds of sacrifices you are ready to make in order to BECOME a PLAYER. Not a silly ass shit PUA, not new gay Mystery... It's about becoming a real man. Sophisticated real man...

Some time passed since I was investing my time in dates and quite some time since my last field report. Switched my focus on something else, just so I could come back stronger, stronger than ever... And I will continiue this curve in the time to come.

Because being in the game will lead you eventually to a plateau, so you need to work on multiple things about yourself. For me it's getting back to regular working out.

Just got back from a journey and funny thing is, how much you change quickly, when you change your every day routine. That is why I will always recommend traveling in order to cleanse your soul.

I am still with 2 girls on my team, but... I must admit, I got bored of sex with them, playkating them around was now only to satisfy my ego, instead of bringing me the results that would make me feel good about myself.

Also you have to realize and KNOW, that change must come first from WITHIN YOURSELF in order to manifest on the outside. You must know that, the girls you meet and fuck, won't make you feel desirable, if you don't threat yourself as desirable person... You need to gap that void within yourself if you want to move faster in your game. Confidence is the key, AND I CAME WITH SHITLOADS OF IT! :)

Last night I went out, finally, after quite a while and was quite happy. Wasn't talking and texting with my bitches as I usually do. I had game time, happy hunting time... Being relaxed and smiling a lot... Simply being carefree gets you a lot of attention and a lot of choosing signals.

I reacted, I reacted as mean motherfucker that I am.. First there's this bitch with her boyfriend, keeps eye fucking me. Boyfriend is some faggot, so I know why's she's checking out for a real man... I am not fond of hitting up on girls while they are with their boyfriends, that PUA bullshit... So I just call her out on that.

-"Why are you looking at me when you are with your man?"

She gets ashamed... As she should be... Would you like to have a girlfriend like that?

Getting eye contact from a cross the club. Approach the girl, ask her for dance, but since the music that night wasn't my kind of thing and it got really hot, I just went straight for the number. She rejects... Well I ain't gonna chase you girl... You had your chance.. For the best cock of your life... :)

I am just trying to demonstrate you the attitude...

Don't give up the fight, keep playing player...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Tune your alarm!




Lately I completely went off the line with myself. Spending way too much time in front of computer, stopped working out and devoted myself to work and generally betrayed myself with crappy behavior... When shit like that happens, your game goes down. Period.

Tough I kept shitloads of my fake confidence and became blind to things that are happening around me, instead of being a wolf in the sheep skin...

So I got a date with some fancy dressed chick and I fucked it up. Getting her life story was easy part, because she was talking shitloads, but instead of listening... I was preocuppied with my ego and how I got good pussy instead of trying to figure her out... We made out right off the bat and there was great intimacy between us. I knew when energy fell down and I failed at selling the dream. Seems like that the best teacher is experience, and I could have tons of it for the past 2 months, but I've decided to stare at this ugly monitor....

The problem was when I didn't want to pay for the other drink (I paid for the first one). Issue is not that I didn't want to pay the drink, it's that I didn't play it off with words the way I should as a player....

At least I got back into the game, because past 2 months I didn't move my ass from this stupid computer.

Need to get back on track, since at the momment I am down on one bitch, instead of having three...

Need to regain my motivation somehow to wordly things instead of blabbing about internet marketing 90% of the time.


When we separated, I told her to wake me up tommorow, she said cool and confirmed the time. Than couple of hours later...
This message is the reason why I am writing this post:

"Since probably when I start to work tommorow, I will forget to wake you up, so tune your alarm. And I don't want you to put your hopes up, I am not gonna fake you around. I didn't like some things that are important to me, and beside all of that you are younger, sorry."

(sorry for loose translation, it's kinda hard) I replied:

"I think you misjudged me and you're not giving us opportunity to meet better... If you feel that's for the best, okay. If you feel differently, we'll hear from each other. Sweet dreams"

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

My graduation to player level!


I haven't been writing for a while, but...

...I've got some great news and need to keep track on my progress and keep you guys updated!!!


Third team member, better control over entire team, better leadership, less bitch assness over all... Great ammount of power in all 3... My personal progress is skyrocketing and I am getting into it.


I also gained a higher level in my self confidence and it has real basis. I tuned in my mindfucking skills and I am getting everything my way. 

I have a feeling that from this point onward I am going to start swapping team members on regular basis in constant recycling for new ones.

I booked friday and saturday for my biggest issue, CLUBS. 

MILF started buying things for me, so I can sense also first impressions of macking. Nothing expensive, but that's a start and good indicator, that I am doing a good job.

I started taking control over my EGO and on that I am very proud. I am not getting irritated anymore and I am way more relaxed than I used to be. I don't put any more pressure on myself.

One of the things that I am really proud as well is that I see true bitches bullshit that they put out in the air. I learned to respect game of woman also!

All in all, I fell like I am becoming imense force, just because I can take control over myself, unlike other people. Finally I know that I am advanced enough that my dating advice actually counts. :)



Friday, February 5, 2010

Inner Game Improvement, Car Sex and Approach...

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Sunday, January 24, 2010

Updating trough January... part 3




I can't bother writing field reports lately... I am not approaching in a way I used to... Maybe I am loosing out on my skillset, but I am at point where I get enough pussy and a feeling that more will come with the vibe that I am currently having...

Investing my time in social circle in my girlfriend and my newly acquired fuck buddy. I am feeling totally satisfied for the time being on this issue.

It was funny how I was vibing tonight in front of my ex... It is funny how chicks can act totally chodely when you become a man. She got all emotional and attracted to me. I felt sorry for her... She doesn't have much choice lately and at this point I am the one who is doing the choosing and having a freedom of choice.

Since I got my foundation handled in the near future I am about to get control and rythm with my current ho'es. I believe I am doing nicely. At some point when new pussy comes around I will check out what she has to offer, in the meanwhile there are plenty of things that I can work on... Handling other areas of my life will improve my game. Need to see the dentist and check out about my teeth and get permanent bracelet.

I will hit the gym more often and study harder in order to get my university into the rythm... Need to get back on my path.

I believe I handled the MILF perfectly, told her that I have gf and she's totally fine with that. From my point of view it seems she doesn't have much choice. I know I am on right path the moment she offered to buy me gloves for this cold weather... That was really cute of her, maybe she could get me some flowers as well, haha :)
What I like the most is that her pussy is obliterated in bed. The way I imposed control over her orgasm, she needs to beg for it and ask for permission before cumming. She gets the load all over the face without any problems, and best of all is that she likes it. I ask her "who's slut she is?" and she responds by yelling out my name...

The same way I am handling my girlfriend.

Only dilemma is should I get my old gf back as fuck buddy or avoid her. She's ex abuser of amphetamines and is medicated on antidepressive and I am not sure that I need the smell of her low self esteem. I am very fond of her as she used to be my first gf I ever had, back in the days when she was far better... It seems something died in her eyes, she doesn't have the energy in her eyes she used to have, something I used to fall in love with and I feel sorry for her... In a way she almost calls out my "captain save a ho" from somewhere deep withing... I tried it back than even, but it was in peril, I believe it is the same now...

I guess it's time waste and my time is far batter spent in some new pussy...

Friday, December 18, 2009

Summ up of the year 2009


Well at this very moment I am very happy. Kinda summing up the year behind me. It's almost 8 months of me infield and had so many crazy adventures that changed and shook my core.

So many new beliefs obtained and worked trough, fears passed away, that even my close friends seem to notice it.

I've been hitting the gym for 10 months got crazy ass results, that I didn't knew were possible and looking bad ass now, which affects my confidence a lot (my health too). I started eating healthier, totally stooped consuming alcohol...

I've got a girlfriend and unlike before she ain't psycho or anything that I've encountered before, something I consider high value person. She may not look good physicly as I'd like her to be, but is a wonderful person, one of the best girls I've been with personality wise.

Had loads of day 2's, some makeouts, roller coaster of emotions with lots of various woman. Kissed more of them than last year, banged some old, will be banging some more of new before the year is over...

I obliterated my approach anxiety and made approaching my way of living. It is fun for me to do so and I love it. I've became mega flirty person who always gets some attention from woman.

I started living in my own flat living on my own and taking care of myself!

And on top of that all I am about to get my bachelors degree and opening myself new opportunities in my life!

When I remember how I had crappy life playing World of Warcraft 12 hours each day in front of my computer... Eaten apart and consumed by radiation from my monitor :)

I have gotten a lot of self confidence, which is backed up by reality. I never really had major problems with self confidence, but back than it was delusional and overambitious, now I have reality and my achievements to back me up.

I still have fears that tend to fuck me up. I still have doubts about me being able to get this done, but I endure! And I will prevail, no matter what happens. I will push myself trough even harder than I was before!

Because year 2010 is year where I will get it done! 365 days of glory and adventure AWAIT ME!



Monday, November 30, 2009

Field Report 29.11.2009. Do you wanna fuck me?




Unlike last night, this evening was challenge night with 2 of guys from community. We were doing all sorts of silly shit. Set by set... Laughing our asses of.

First set I opened was some blonde chick I asked her if she wants to fuck with me. Than we went to the city square couple of meters from there. In few minutes, her boyfriend approaches me shaking under adrenaline rush yelling to me: "What did you say to my girlfriend?" I wasn't sure who his girlfriend was, cold gazing into his eyes saying: "Nothing negative". Didn't even flinch, he was huge motherfucker, but still shaking his legs. He obviously was furious and needed to grab his balls to do this. He was kinda surprised with reaction, toned his voice and said something: "You insulted my girlfriend, apologize to her."

I gave her hand, and said sorry. She gave hand back, was funny as hell to me. Wondering now, why I jumped into his frame, but it didn't matter, because I could beat his chodley ass off. Actually I felt sorry for the guy in a way. He had a lot of issues approaching me and wasn't sure of anything. I remained totally calm, which surprised me. I didn't stand back, just long cool gaze into, like everything is under control. They left immediately.

After that it was approach fest. We were giving more and more challenges, one after another. It was jack shit to approach at this point and trough out the rest of the night. Loads of funny things happening, we ended with some free popcorn from some random chicks. I had a couple of good interactions, though I freaked the fuck out some group of chicks. I went in too much direct and I guess they thought I was some psycho or something, too much intent or something. I am 1.9 m tall and well built, was wearing long dark coat, so...

After the challenges ended, I actually approached some chicks asking them: "Do I intimidate you?" I guess it was state related, later on I was way more relaxed than before...

I felt like I am shit for past couple of days, but my wings are telling me that I am improving. Well one thing is certain, I am motherfucking approaching machine, fearless what so ever. Can crash into any set any given time. Though, now when I got that shit handled, I want to pay attention to some results. Didn't #close or kiss close in quite a while, which is totally demotivated me. But my wing kept my happy side, I guess he can see it better than I do.

I noticed that you can kino a lot right of the bat. There was quite some kino involved in some of the challenges, so it kinda struck me how close you can get.

I am kinda happy about this, there is large dose of consistent, and some new sticking points that I will handle.


Sunday, November 29, 2009

Field Report 28.11.2009.

BOOOOM!

I was approaching like a motherfucker tonight. During the day I opened some chick in the gym, with something that was high risk, went well, fluffed a bit. To open in gym was a barrier, because I am there everyday and kinda don't want to fuck up my social proof there, which is true bullshit, because I really don't need to care what anyone else thinks of me, so I took a baby step toward liberation, there are other hot chicks that work out, why not approach them.

In the evening I met up with 8 guys from the community. I organized entire gathering, some people were missing, but it was cool. I was late, couldn't find a parking lot, barely did it. When I arrived they were chodeing around and talking about the game, some of em, met for the first time. I came in, introduced myself to the crew I didn't know and went opened some chick with: "I like your hat." Convo went from there, I wanted to pull her with us to the club, she politely rejected. I went in too fast again... Damn I seem not to take this seriously enough.

After that, guys went to the cafe and me and my friend went to approach sets on the street. For the rare ocassion I opened 2 set without anxiety. I Believe that was the best set of the evening, vibe and state wise. I opened my target with: "May I meet your friend, she seems really cute" While eyefucking her totally. I found out that my original target is not that good chick, so I swap to friend.

Anyway, eject again. I am starting to believe that I am approaching just for the approach itself, without intention to push trough. I guess that is my new comfort zone that I need to break.

Than entered the caffe and guys were chodeing around about M3 model, NLP, routines and outter game stuff. It was boring, but kinda people were getting to know each other and sharing their goals, sucsess and failures.

Than we went to the club. I opened some two barely legal chicks. It was on till one moment, me in her face and everything was cool and next momment I blew it, don't know why, just felt it.

After that I opened some chick, over my shoulder, she tells me to turn around (away from her), I tell her thanks for inviting me. Tried to plow, although it was blowout out from the start. She started mentioning her BF and that he's behind her and she was serious about it.

My eyes are collapsing, I am gonna finish this story as soon as I wake up.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Field Report 13.11. Eyes Wide Shut


Uf, glory day... I am exhausted!!!! Had loads of approaches and can't remember half so far. There was this one approach that I'am proud of! Anyway I am gonna state how all went, accurately as possible.

First I've got myself into talkative mood, again, just by saying random hello to chicks around me and I keep getting good responses and hello back. Than I went and asked some chick if she can tell me and my friend where can we eat? She was really polite. We take a walk and approach city square.

I find a glory chick, go hard and go direct, that is like first approach. I keep plowing, she tells me her name, and she's like "I am waiting for my friend". It's quite akward when you go in hard during street game (it was evening, so I can't say it's practicely day game).

The chick gets embarrassed and tells me she has a boyfriend, I reply: "But I am not interested in your boyfriend..." I couldn't handle the pressure after this point and therefore I eject. Somehow I fall into their emotion of uncomfort or it's vice versa, I don't know. Anyway I got into reaction. It's somehow funny, you are there in the moment and recognize the symptoms of what you are doing wrong. She was constantly smiling though and I felt fine because of that.

I get back to my friend, we sit near by. We talk about him doing his first approach, and he's stuck. I like the kiddo, he's super cool, but has problems with AA, his game is fine in social circle, but on streets he gets totally confused. Anyway I tell him it's easy and open up with total random bullshit the first chick that was near us. "Hey hey, we need your opinion, we're having a discussion here... Who lies more, man or woman?" The chick replies... Execution was perfect, I could stack on from there and kept talking, but it wasn't the point in that particular moment.

We see this incredible blonde, from a far she looks like a 9. I am petrified in a way. Trying to push my friend into doing it, he doesn't want to. Fuck it, she's cool. I go in and I go in hard and keep 3 things in mind:

1. I don't fucking care what everyone thinks of me.
2. My game is fucking 10.
3. All the chicks are into me.

And I approach her directly.

"Hey I find you interesting, want to get to know you better. My name is EF."

She gives me her hand, but doesn't give me her name. She kinda gets frightened, and this is where I surprised myself! I step back and put my palms up front, like totally non aggressive. Like courtship between animals. This keeps me in game. She starts smiling. We start talking. I start busting her balls. I tell her she's shy, she says, that she's not used to meeting people on the street. At this point I figure out that she's made up for tonight, otherwise she would be 8. I tell her something about hair, complimenting her, and wonder how come other guys don't approach her, something like that and accusing her that she's seductress. I went in for the number too soon and asked her 2 more times for her name.

Damn, dunno why I did that mistake. It's not a first time that a chick doesn't tell me her name and I dealt with it in the past by giving them names I want and immediatly from there goes into role play, dunno why I fucked it up this time, doesn't matter. I keep strong eye contact and I can sense attraction spiking. She starts asking me questions.

"How old are you?"
"What do you study?"
...

And those other bullshit chodes would ask chicks.

I bust her balls, tell her she's maybe infected with swine flue and push her away from me, she giggles there.

During the entire convo, my hands are shaking a bit. I am having huge adrenaline rush, but kept it under control, feeling was insane. That feeling itself, created insane vibe. Got me under the influence of the whole thing. We talk something and she figures out that I am with my friend. And than I tell her that I can't leave him for too long, I felt stupid for leaving my friend too long alone, but it was mind fuck, stupid excuse, justified in my head, should have kept plowing. Stayed in set sooo long... I believe I was at hook point.

She asks me what's my zodiac, I tell her my zodiac, ask her hers, she tells me she's <3rd> and than I bust her that she's dangerous. She asks why, i respond, that her sign is great in bed, she starts giggling...

So in the end I got where she's university, how old she is and her zodiac sign, but still no name, nor phone number! I was too aggressive at start, where I was supposed to build attraction and cool off the harsh get in. I believe it's more suitable for clubs, rather than for streets.

At the end I kiss her in the cheek, she doesn't get away. I was inviding her personal space after 4-5 minutes of conversation. After that I am just glowing and walking on pure adrenaline.

Than some random shit on streets, nothing serious.

After all of that street gaming I get on some private party. Instantly I hook up on some 3 set. Get there initial attention and we shoot some pictures. It was maskenball and I was one of the rare ones not in the costume, I wasn't planning to go there anyway. I bust some balls in that set and at one point I start loosing things to say. I sensed some vibe between me and tenis girl (her costume). Girls give me the roll of her manager. Than it's totally off when I leave my jacket and I don't get back into the set.

From this point everything goes down. My energy level gets insanely low and I am still tired. I was busting some balls of the other people on the party. Few crappy blow outs. There was one chick dressed up as a guy, I tell her I would never figure out she is a girl. We vibe a bit, than she gets cocky, and asks me why am I not talking to other chicks and says she's hitting them all the time. She assumes I am gay and I acknowledge it and start touching her. She freaks out and stands away from me and leaves. Brings in some chode and chode starts talking to me, she says I am gay. I start touching the guy, guy gets weirded out, she gets turned on. I chat a bit with a chode. He tries to amog me, I just laugh unreactivly. It's somewhat silly I don't take it personally, assume he had too much to drink, he's dressed into football player. After that I see the chick checking me out a couple of times.

And when I am about to leave I go and say hi to tennis girl, she's really sad that I am going, that moves up my state (still Dependant on external validation) and say hi to "school teacher", who is actually a friend from high school. I bust her balls for the costume, she loves the way I kino-ed her straigh away for lower back, I think it kinda turned her on, she got super sexy in her voice. Looks way better than she usualy does.

Anyway now that I am rewinding the party I don't know why I left, but for some sillry reoson I couldn't push myself anymore out of my comfort zone. Chicks were receptive, but I was off.

One of those great days, where I pushed myself pretty hard. Proud of myself, a lot.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Chode Regression Pattern...

Why do we regress if we don't approach consistently?

After 2 months of non-approaching I again have some shit form of AA, some shit form of blockades when I am about to kiss close and things like that...

I believe that some of you guys have an explanation for this. I just don't feel well when I have drawbacks in my game it makes me feel kinda frustrated, but also keeps me in drive for trying more.

I made some moves, my verbal game is up to the task, but, that kino momment, when you need to reel in and grab a girl, make a critical move I get stuck in my head and block myself shitless. I am not 100% sure, I am not 101% decisive! How to get there? Grrrr..........

Having a gf is like a curse, rather than a buff...

Sunday, October 4, 2009

03/04/09 Field Report


I went out to some party with a friend who is kinda newbie in the game. It was some birthday and lots of girls he already knows. Lots of his girlfriends were approaching him and I was kinda hooking from there. Didn't make any approaches, but had loads of interactions.
At one point I wanted to approach one chick and instead she comes by to us. I grab her elbow and pull her in, full intent, she got scared or something. Asked her name and it's off...

Bit by bit I was halfway getting into state. Some blonde cutie hit's me remembers me from some other party 2 weeks ago. I grab her by her waist, stand there a bit, busting her that she's too aggressive. Teasing her and she's all over me. My friend does nothing to her friend and they pull out.
After a while whole bunch of them, comes to dance with us. Blondie teases my cock with her ass. It was kinda a nice, cause beside feeling good and doing nothing in particular we were surrounded by chicks.
I pull the blonde again, when she was near us, kiss her on the chick telling her that we're leaving. Grab her really close and start touching the back of her neck and keeping her really close. She puts her head on my shoulder and stays there for a while, was emotional moment to her I think.


I didn't leave my comfort zone, but it's nice feel that things are going on. Nothing in particular happened, but it left some impact on me as an event.
Need to push myself way more into cold approaching.
Which I did right after. We went after to grab some food. There was a chick behind us.
"Are you from this neighborhood?" -"Yea" -"Can you tell us where XYZ dinners is?" -"Are you busting my balls?" -"No, I am not from around here." -"Where are you from?"
At that point we got into convo, but right after we got to the place where we wanted to eat and I naturally ejected, without much thinking. Because we've arrived to the dinners we were after, invited her over, but she proceeded. Guess not enough attraction for her to stay, nor for me to pursue ;p My friend was kinda shocked how I had massive attraction right off the bat. To be frank I was kinda too. Keep myself surprising how woman are responding well to me. Kinda think how it would go if I was longer in the field, guess I am gonna find that out...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

01/10/2009 Field Report


Well I won't keep this blog only as blog, it's gonna be a personal diary of seduction to an extent. After one month break I decided to get back to field, because FIELD IS KING!

Don't get me wrong, I didn't waste month, I had 2 fclose's and I got a "gf" now. Well I didn't make anything official, but I see her on consistent basis.

So after the long break I decided to get back. And I am way worse than I was before. Not externally but internally. When you are good internally even when you are bad, you are not affected by bad result, but you strive for change and learn fast.

For some reason I am really having old issues, like AA and shit like that. I still need to break my reality hardcore, not to protect my ego. I need to step up to my own level that I knew I had.

Consistency, like in the gym. Consistency is what brings results, not fucking ego protection.

I do not care what anyone thinks of me!

I had just a couple of approaches and I was blown out hard time. And I was angry about it. Anger comes from ego, which is not satisfied with the result he gets, but we are not preoccupied here with the ego, aren't we?